Today (wednesday the 11th of march, 2009)William Packard, a great man, father of 5, grandfather of 16, my grandfather, died.
If you guys have been reading my blogs you would know that he was told recently that he had cancer, and that he had three months at best.
up until last sunday it seemed he was going to last those three months, but he went downhill fast.
for the last three days the whole family has been by his side (and im talking about 20 odd people) making sure that he did not have one moment alone. Even when it got to the stage that he did not respond to anything, and it was a struggle to just breath..
It was a hard site to see, but at least he is out of pain now. the last site i saw of him was in his best short shorts (which he was known for wearing) his favourite top that he got from one of his many journeys around the world, and a pair of thongs that he has had for as long as i can remember. It was the Bill that the world knew.
any prayers for me and my family, or even kind words of support is appreciated...
thankyou for reading

hey, pretty sure no one reads these.. but it helps a little for me to write them..

so i just finished my first week of Uni, pretty full on, and real expensive (like the course was $800 for the first semester, pluss about another $400 on books), i mean seriously!

Dad told me that grandad has about 3 months to live... i visited him the other day, seemed ok. Was totally with it and knew who i was (more then i can say for my grandma) but he looked very frail.. and wanted sleep after only 15 minutes of seeing him.. but atleast i got to see him.

grandma has been in hospital. they got rid of the clot in her arm, so she has a pulse in it again, but they say she will never get use of it again.. atleast it was her left arm and not her right.. They also tried to get her walking again (she has been become bedridden, not sure how that went though.. she is still in hospital now.

well that's it for now
bye

So, i havent heard from my dad or grandad about whats happening with him.. It might be better for me not to know right now.. Ignorance is bliss..
My mum talked to me last night, and basically said to visit grandma soon, because they are talking about taking her off the stuff that is keeping the infections that she keeps getting, on a lower level, i guess you could say... which means she wont be around for much longer. Apparently it's to make her death a lot more natural and less painfull... Is there ever a way to be ready for things like this?..
I desperately want to make something for her. Paint a picture, take a photo... Something.. but i cant think of anything that is adequate..

The one kinda.. ok thing that's happened lately is that i've decided to go on a diet. and i have lost about 1.5kg in 4 days. I'm hoping to get down to around 60kg by the end of the year.. it's going to be hard. But i'm sick of being this big and unfit.

Until next time

Hey everyone,
it's been a while since i have done anything on my page really, been pretty uninspired in ways of art, and for some reason just haven't gotten around to updating my journal.

so to start with, all the hard work i was talking about in my last journal paid off when i wound up with a 90.05 for my UAI which i am very happy with. i also now know that i have been accepted into the course i wanted to do at the UC.. Bachelor of Education, Early childhood teaching 0-8yrs. aka i'm going to learn to teach little ones so that's all well and good.

On the other side of things, im not sure if im ready to start Uni just yet.. but all my family wants me to.. so i guess that means no traveling for me.. ohwell
Also.. my grandad had about.. 8 months ago was diagnosed with bowel cancer, luckily they found it early enough that they were able to remove it fully. Since then though he has been really winding down.. so much so that the family here are having him over every night to make sure he eats and drinks, because if he is alone he doesnt look after himself at all. he has two dogs who he feeds and dotes on, yet he wont look after himself at all.. well anyways, he recently was put into hospital for dehigration, but now they are checking his heart.. seems something might be very wrong.. it's so weird to see a man traveling around the world totally fine one year.. and to go so downhill the next..
The other thing is that my grandma, who has been winding down for some years now (totally opposite to my grandad) was also admitted into the hospital the exact same day as my grandad. she has had sores on her legs that havent healed fully for about 2 years now.. and recently she has gotten a really bad infection, and so yeah... was sent to ICU..
it is weird though.. to see two people age totally differently.. yet.. it seems i'm probably going to loose them both in the same year.. not sure if i'm ready for that.. guess i take these things a day at a time..

well anyways, i'll stop now, there is more i could say, but this journal is already too long, thanks for reading, the fact that you care enough to even just be interested enough to read this whole thing means something, so thankyou.

for the last 5 weeks i haven't had time to do anything at all.
even at lunch times at school i have been working.
but now
after many breakdowns
and having no social life at all

i have finally finished all of my work!
that's it
done
no more college...
EVER

maybe i'll get time to do some art now